Hello.

[ConkerKing]

This will probably sound stupid. So if you don't want to read a bunch of stupid dribble, I'd suggest exiting this thread now, because at the moment I'm having one of those days where I think about life, people, etc. and realize how much trouble life simply is.

Alright, to start things off, I've found that people, in general, are idiots. Not everyone, just the general majority. Mostly women.* Basically, from what I've experienced, people irl will not be your friend unless it benefits them. Because what's the point in talking to someone who has the same general interests as you, right?

Also, I have a terrible shyness with people in general. From what I've been told I should "just go up to someone and start talking". Tried that. Didn't work so well. Infact, as an example, I sat at a different table than I normally do at lunch. I was the first at the table, because my class usually arrives at lunch first. Everyone at the table quickly called me a nerd and to find somewhere else to sit because I would annoy the **** out of them.

Of course, these people had never met me in their lives. And yet, they think I'm a nerd. That's another problem I have with people: They judge before they get to know someone. I know what you're thinking, "they're just preppy b!tches who want to belittle you". Well as true as that is, most people, including me, want to fit in. I don't cut myself, but I do get extremely depressed when I know someone doesn't like me.

It just eats me up inside. I mean, what did I ever do to them? And when I try to ask them why they don't like me, they usually ignore me or tell me to go away.

Now, onto another thing: Past friends. Friends you've had for awhile. I've had two friends for quite awhile, Natalie and Kelly. They both were girls who I could actually talk to (again, the shyness thing), so I figured they wanted to be my friends .... Now, I just don't know. I mean we went to the mall like ... once together. And I went to Kelly's birthday party awhile ago but now ... we don't really talk at all.

I guess I'm clingy toward friends because ... this one friend I had, Eric, I insulted one day and .. the day after he kind of .. killed himself. Or died accidentally... I'm still not sure.

Also I can never be mean to anyone irl because of that. I'm always happy and nice. Which people take advantage of (see: half of my **** is gone because I lend it to people who never give it back).

Finally, I find myself humorous. And many people on the internet tell me I am. Unfortunately, people do not find me funny in real life. It's really embarrassing telling a joke and being the only one who laughs. Teachers even tell me I'm not funny. It's rather sad.

In conclusion: I suck. Discuss how much I suck.

((* = Not saying all women are idiots, infact most of them are brilliant, just high school preppy women.))

((Also if any of this doesn't make any sense it was because I just kept writing whatever popped into my brain.))

[Adam]

Damn, bro. You seem like the opposite of me so I can't really empathize. In all honesty, people tend to want to talk to me. I don't get it. I know people like you IRL, but I don't really understand what's wrong. I want to talk to them. If it makes you feel any better, I'd hang out with you IRL.

[Jinjonator]

You sound a lot like me. I feel your pain.

[ConkerKing]

Thanks for reminding me about one other thing:

Internet friends are the best because they have no other reason to be your friend than because they actually like you.

[dmoss]

I blame the internet.

Also, like 3vil, I'm pretty much the opposite of what you're feeling, I think. I didn't read every little bit of what you said, but I felt like I was on the other side of the fence on this one. Sorry, man.

[Kaz da Breegull]

Tell me about it...

I'm a shy, nervous wreck in person most of the time. I've been backstabbed by so-called friends before, and as a result I'm very slow to trust people. I avoid eye contact most of the time because it makes me feel uncomfortable. I was the ghost of my high school class, but I liked it that way: nobody took notice of me. I had only three or four close friends, but I trusted them. Everyone else commented on how "odd" or "freaky" I was.

If it helps any, though, college is different (at least, it has been for me): everyone is in the "I don't know anyone here" boat, and the atmosphere is a lot nicer. There are still the preppy girls and the jocks, but there are a lot more friendly, accepting people. Of course, it might just be my school... but in any case high school is filled with idiots. Anything beats that.

If you want to talk to me, I'm always around. I know how you feel, so don't be afraid to toss a PM my way sometime.

[Adam]

It's the same at this college, Kaz. Unlike you, though, I don't like that. It kind of loses it's character. My opinion, anyway. In high school, I hung out with the kids that everyone thought would shoot up the school. Goth clothes, metal music, making mischief...we weren't messed with really. People thought we would snap at any moment and we thought it was the funniest thing ever.

[Grey Jinjo]

My intuition tells me that half of the people in this thread are lying.

[Adam]

Originally Posted by Grey Jinjo

My intuition tells me that half of the people in this thread are lying.

"Not I." Said the Courage Wolf.

[IronCrue34]

Originally Posted by dmoss

I blame the internet.

There is no reason to blame the net, human discretion has been around far longer...

Anyway, you sound like a carbon copy of myself. Lately it has not been bothering me so much, but I would be a liar if I said it doesn't at all.

[Kain Horward]

You sound a lot like me. I've always been extremely shy irl, and I don't trust people easily. I've been used by too many "friends" before. I'm always depressed and nothing I do seems to help me feel better. And I'm not emo or anything (I don't cut myself...anymore), I just sit in my room and cry for hours. And I sort of have the opposite problem you do; as much as I try to be, I don't think I'm particularly funny, yet everyone I know seems to think I'm a riot. And I would be your friend irl too. You seem like an awesome person

[Deebs]

You sound quite similar to me. I hate people, i think they're idiots, and i'm shy around them. So you, me, Kain, IronCrue, and Jinjonator are all copies of eachother.

I'm just more freaky, darker, and more amazing.

[Gruntling]

You don't sound so different from me CK. In general, I prefer the company of myself over the company of others. I think you have a pretty normal reaction to your circumstances.

In high school, I disliked most people. There were way too many cliques and wannabes. But after I got into college things turned for the better. It's not just Kaz and L33T, but I have found that the people are in college are much more accepting and not so facetious. Nowadays, I find that I enjoy talking to others. So I have great confidence your situation will improve after you graduate.

[Deebs]

I wish i liked people, i just... Don't like people in general.

[Twi]

I'm like that too CK.